Thursday, December 31, 2020

Failing

 Before the the year ends wanted to post a quick follow up to the other night. After my failure post I asked my wife if she thought I was a failure and she said no. I asked if her if she thought of us as successful and her response wasn’t quite so clear. She thought we were doing well, but didn’t think success wouldn’t feel so financially tight and challenging as it always seems to be with us. I can see her point. Some savings and a few vacations to nice places may go a long way to helping her feel that we are more successful.

I guess I’m just so dramatic and need to lighten up a little bit. I’m not a failure. Sure I have failed a bunch, but that’s a good thing. I have also had a bunch of success. True success is in reach. I just have to keep trying and feel that before long we will make it happen. True success. Undeniable American Dream kind of success that will also come with the personal internal fulfillment I’m looking for and hope to provide for my family. I’ll let you know when my wife and daughter agree that we’ve made it. I’m sure the bar will continue to be raised on that measure, but that’s a good thing too. 

Happy new year.


Monday, December 28, 2020

Failure

 I am a failure. Trying to explain to my wife and fifteen year old why the National Debt is important ends with my daughter screening at me running from the room in tears and my wife telling me I sound like a crazy conspiracy theory person. Believing in freedom and Capitalism makes me the person who doesn’t care about people - and because I’m middle class and not a successful entrepreneur am a fool to believe America is still a place of opportunity. 

I am a fool. And since my wife and daughters do not think of me as successful then I am not. If my daughter thinks I don’t care about people then I must not. If I do not think of myself as successful then I am not.

Saturday, December 19, 2020

Dear Dad

 Hope you are well. I wish you were here. Not figuratively but actually here here. I know spiritually and in my heart and soul and in my being you are present, but could really use one of your hug’s right now. Or one of you cool handshakes that started with one of those pops! I guess I better start giving out some more of those fatherly hugs myself I guess. Mary doesn’t really like to hug, but gives a mean high five. Kayla, Chloe tho could use a little more fatherly affection. Suzy gives great hugs. 

Any who, just wanted to say hi. I love you. Miss you. 

Love,

Biddy Buddy